Day 3 of new reality?
Day 3 of new reality?
So I just took the third dose of trazadone at 10:00, 100 mg. I will be taking 7 doses at this level followed by 23 days at 150 mg.
Today was ok, but had some off moments. We made a list of things for mr to get done, of which I got many of them - I started two batches of wine; specifically one batch of ghetto grape juice concentrate and one batch of mead with some spices added. I am glad to have those going.
Doing this took a couple of trips to the health food store to get some filtered water. As I was walking out to go o none of he trips I was feeling kind of blah. Not necessarily bummed or depressed, but not happy either. I found myself considering what I have read about ADHD, another brain chemistry thing that I have considered I have. Now I know that one is not supposed t self-diagnose themselves with that, but when I read books on the subject it seemed like het were writing my life story.
It seems that others had similar thoughts, I have learned. My father says hat he was kinda hyper when he was a kid. His parents’ solution to “the problem” (as dad called it) was to send him to catholic school where he brothers beat it out of him. When my first grade teacher sent home a note suggesting (in 1966, before it was popular) that perhaps I needed to have drugs, my parents sent me to catholic school. It seems that the couple of nuns and lay teachers I had between second and fifth grade were not exactly what they were looking for.
Anyways from what I have read, the experiences of the people who take thing like Ritalin can be characterized as either amazing, they ca concentrate and life is good, or in some cases somewhat less dramatic and maybe less desirable in that while the lows are eliminated, so are some of the highs and that life could seem kinda boring. I certainly hope that I am not setting myself up for that.
Oh yeah one more thing … My digestion has been a little weird today, I hope that it isn’t a permanent side effect of this stuff.