CPAP, general ungroundedness...
CPAP, general ungroundedness…
today feels a bit odd. I feel strangely ungrounded. It feels like something is going to happen, I can feel it, but I can’t tell its source.
I’m still smokin’ cigs and stuff. I’ve noticed some allergy-like reactions that I wasn’t aware of before, mostly because i’d never stepped far enough away to notice them gone. Kinda like the muscle stress you feel only when it is removed by massage, chiropractic, or some other means. But I’m noticing that I get sniffly when I indulge, and that sniffliness goes away with time. The sniffles are problematic for using my CPAP thingie for my sleep apnea.
I’ve become used to, if not entirely happy with, my CPAP sleeping apparatus. For the first several weeks I had a hard time getting to sleep because of the noise, but eventually that lessened. My lungs and associated muscles have become used to the effort needed to exhale with the mask on. I’ve learned to keep my mouth closed when using the thing, but I’ve noticed recently that the mask has a hard time making a seal. Sometimes this means that I feel a breeze on my eyelids, which does nothing to enhance sleeping. Last night this resulted in sqeaking; I couldn’t immediately identify the source.
I no longer consider the CPAP my enemy, but I’ve not yet gotten to the point where I miss it if it isn’t there. It feels normal when the blower kicks in, but it’s still a little difficult to talk while it’s on. Most nights I still take it off at some point in the early morning, but I don’t always remember removing it.