whazup?
whazup?
SO here I am, unemployed, by my own choice. I didnt get fired, I didn’t get laid off, I quit because I had to admit that the job was destroying me, hurting me in ways that I might never recover from. What’s the problem? well my shoulder has been hurting for months, but it got really bad after the accident. For the first 2 months my treatment went fine except for the damage that my job, which included hauling 50 lb transformers up and down ladders, hauling around those ladders, and running post hole diggers and power augers in the cold ground in January and February (and all the other months, too). Two weeks ago, we hosted a birthday party for Isha that included putting up a bedouin tent. The day before this, I fell off a ladder that slid out from under me in a pottery shop at flatirons crossing.. whatever the combination, at the end of the weekend my shoulder hurt in whole new ways that were beyond what I’d experienced up til then. I worked two and a half days that week.. but since that Thursday, the 10th, I havn’t been to work. I’ve been to a doctor (MD) who said (without doing any cool mri scans or my shoulder or anyihing) that my shoulder isnt bad ehough to need surgery now, but that I had to avoid doing things like lifting stuff above my head. Then I saw a physical therapist, who gave me some exercises to do. Remember, all this costs money cuz I don’t have insurance, and I don’t get reimbursed for the expenses until we settle with the insurance companuy, and that doesnt happen until our treatment is finished.. which could take years, and I have to bear the costs until then. SO in the middle of all this, I find myself asking what my career move is to be. SO far, I’ve been barking upo an old tree - applying for tech jobs left and right. Even winning in this endeavor is a net loss. Here’s how it goes: I get the Big Priced Tech Job, and I start wearing silly clothes like dockers and polos shirts (I don’t even oan any of these fit to wear in an office any more.. in fact, my wardrobe ought to be pretty sparse.. more later), driving god-knows how far to work, hating traffic, realizing in September I spent all the nice summery hours in a server room somewhere, and someone’s trying to tell me how much time off I should have. Soon, I wonder if I should have stuck it out to try to find some kind of alternative method of making a living. Of course, if I did that one, I’d be making a buttload of money. Many of the jobs i’ve been applying for have rates like $30-35/hour. Working like that would make it so that Michelle could quit her dead end temp job and make money making shawls or something. That’s great, except I think that maybe I’d like to have the chance to do something cool for a while. And I have a couple avenues which would allow for that sort of thing. One is to pour all my efforts into the massage/mojo healer thing. The only problem is that this is a relatively physically demanding thing. Hopefully I will be able to work around it, and allow my shoulder to really recover. Speaking of recovery, my hands are nice and soft now. No more screws, sheet metal and wires cutting them up. I have some aches and pains that I suspect would not survive long if I were to start a daily yoga practice. Not working, I don’t really have much of an excuse not to. I’m trying an experiment today.. the last sevral days I haven’t played any background. Silent house. Kinda creepy, Today I’m listening to KTCL. I’m trying to figure out how to patch this PC through the main stereo without a major furniture rearrangement.